Dear crush,
Today, while I write this, my heart still skips a beat with every word that engrave in this letter. No wonder that this letter may or may not reach you. Yet, I just wanted to let you know about the butterflies in my stomach that I still get, even when I just hear your name.
Was it magic or was it destiny that our eyes met in the that place where u wer with your friends as we wet coincidentally? Since then, I see you wherever I go.
Looking for you in the crowd and hiding my smile was an everyday thing for me. I liked those mini-heart attack moments when you'd catch me staring and I'd have nothing to say.
I've never got the strength to fall in love with someone right from the beginning and my life has been super cool only with the infinite number of crushes I've ever had. But there'll be this "ANJALA" crush, in everyone's life. The beauty part is they'll have the courage to reveal this to everyone, except to whom it must be known.
As the saying goes "not everyone is blessed with all that they desire", it makes me a little strong, everytime I feel broken, when I think that you cannot be mine. But, the thought that you are at least talking with me, whenever I dumb ur inbox with messages, gives utmost solace to my heart and peace to my mind. I would wait for hours to have that one glance, make excuses to see them, and then spend the whole day blushing if they said one HELLO.
Finding ways to talk to you with various excuses were my favourite things to do. Today, when I think about all those stupid ideas I had, it makes me feel so idiotic, but it puts a gentle smile on my face as well.
Crush.
The word,
the feeling,
the emotion and
you,
somehow made me feel butterflies, fluttering hard in my stomach and heartbeats, pouncing high everytime I heard your name.
So my dear crush, Your existence was my means of survival. And so, I was happy in my own cage surrounded by your thoughts in my heart.
If ever meet you some day, I will be glad and I wish to tell you all of this with lots of joy and happiness. I wish you stay happy wherever you are. I wouldn't really say I'm writing this to you with grief, because somewhere you're still my crush.
Cheers.
You'll never know me🥺❤️
(To every juniors out there, I, being an expert in this field, would like to say, "KEEP YOUR EXPECTATIONS LOW. If u get a hi, feel it like a love letter and preserve it. Don't kill the precious gem with the knife, love.)
