"I see you smiling, but you are sad" - Eternity and a Day.
I've seen you smile before. I can hear your laughter. You find even the lamest of things amusing now. All of a sudden, it's as if the wold has become a kinder place, hasn't it? Well, thať's what someone observing you would feel. Yet, I'm pretty sure that's not what it is. You have been going through a lot lately, haven't you? You don't show it, but I know. I can feel it. I've been there before.
You've never seemed more joyful. Your presence seems to elevate everyone around you, and that's your shield. You want to make others feel happy because you know the pain of being sad. Showing that you're happy dilutes the attention you get from them. You are trying to push them away without them even realizing something's not right about your feelings.You need space. Yet, you've never needed comfort more than now.
It's not easy. It's not easy to pretend that you're fine so that your problems won't bother others and disrupt their life. It's not easy to be there for others who feel exactly the same as you are, and make them feel better while there is no one to make you feel so. That's why you're so special, unique and kind.
I don't know when this sadness of yours will end. But you should know, there are people around that you can trust. I don't know if you already realise who they are or how much you can share, but you still have them. The point is, you aren't alone. You never were and you never will be. And this time, ll see you smiling, and you'll be happy inside
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Peace.
